Emotions Had Their Claws In Me
I said to my coach the other day “Okay great, so it’s not abut having a conversation with (them) instead it’s about my shifting the emotion behind this relationship.
And he said “yeah, I mean..you don’t actually have to do the work around it. You’re at the stage now just this realisation and conversation has shifted it”
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and I was like damn….he’s right!! smiled ear to ear and reflected on how much work “transmuting” emotions and shifting relationship dynamics with others or my self worth used to be.
Because my emotions had their claws in me.
They were running the show, blinding and overwhelming me.
Feeling so intensely as a highly sensitive women was scary.The ability for me to emotionally process AS things happen is E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G.
I never had the resources to do these necessary things before (bless young Emily):
The capacity in your body toFEEL the intensity of what was happening (as a highly sensitive women) without numbing.
To know when you are overloaded and who you can lean on to actually help.
Having multiple trusted ways to co-regulate with(rather than surface friendships or leaning on people who didn’t have the understanding to actually help)
Trust in the VERY tangible process. That after challenge comes growth. without faith - it’s almost impossible to ‘let yourself go there’.
I teach these in workshops in the school: Emotional Literacy, emotional upgrades and masculine and feminine energy.
These are the skills I needed to make sure I didn’t carry pain further than it needed to be felt.
Or to keep myself in the “healing” / fix myself space for longer than needed.
So that my relationships weren’t effected long term,
my health wasn’t effected long term and,
my self esteem wasn’t effected long term.
What do you need more of? 1, 2, 3 or 4?
and does this make sense?
🌸 Em x
